Where am I, who am I?
This moving between countries has changed me. I never felt at home in Finland. I felt almost right there in Australia, then I returned here to Finland and I felt SO out of place. People were so mean, rude, so unpolite. Now I find myself lowering my standards to that same level. When you never get ANY response you just turn to a vegetable, and don't respond at all when you see someone. You just go with the flow...
I'm so mad at myself for forgetting what it is to be polite even if it is just superficial. What is it? This darkness? Must be a part since after returning to Finland, sun going down and Autumn hitting I've been like a walking corpse....Vitamin-D helps but won't solve the problem.
Suddenly, I understand why Finns are so sad and moody. Come on!! With this weather, what can you expect?? Most of the year we wait for the summer... and the 'summer,' as we know it, might never arrive. If there are good summer nights, everyone goes completely crazy!! People are out partying, staying out all night as if they'd had a gallon of Energy drink. Then when the Autumn hits we hide inside our houses again.
I love Finland. I love my heritage. I love my family. Then why all this has never felt like home? I must've been tossed on the wrong side of the globe or then I was born somewhere warm in my previous life
I'm so mad at myself for forgetting what it is to be polite even if it is just superficial. What is it? This darkness? Must be a part since after returning to Finland, sun going down and Autumn hitting I've been like a walking corpse....Vitamin-D helps but won't solve the problem.
Suddenly, I understand why Finns are so sad and moody. Come on!! With this weather, what can you expect?? Most of the year we wait for the summer... and the 'summer,' as we know it, might never arrive. If there are good summer nights, everyone goes completely crazy!! People are out partying, staying out all night as if they'd had a gallon of Energy drink. Then when the Autumn hits we hide inside our houses again.
I love Finland. I love my heritage. I love my family. Then why all this has never felt like home? I must've been tossed on the wrong side of the globe or then I was born somewhere warm in my previous life
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