Old or not, or just older?
Ok, the time has come. 40's crisis!!!
Yeah, yeah... keep on laughing! I know you are anyway, but it's the same every ten years. I had my 30's crisis well before I hit 30 and now on the verge of my 36th birthday I seem to be having some sort of self contemplation era. All this might have something to do with the fact that I have _time_ to think about things like these and more _time_ to be critical and actually _look_ at myself instead of just rushing from one place to another.
So what have I noticed? My body seems to be older. How? Here a few examples just so you don't feel like you are alone... or that I am..
- If I hurt myself it REALLY hurts plus wounds won't heal that easily.
- I have this loose skin here and there (I know Madonna does too I saw it, so don't feel really too bad about this LOL)
- I have small wrinkles under my eyes. Not too bad, but I swear they weren't there a year ago!!
- Spider veins. Not that I would wear a miniskirt anyway.
- Getting into good shape seems to be harder and getting out shape seems to be very easy.
And it's not just my body. It's my mind. I'm thinking of all that has happened and how many years there is (hopefully) still left and what _more_ I have the possibility to yet experience. All this seems overwhelming if you really start to think about it.
I have had the opportunity to experience a lot of wonderful things in life. Good and bad. Survived it all. I've managed to make almost all my dreams come true near or far. Just a few to go still 
So more about the mind thing... How so older?
- I enjoy house parties more... And if I do go out I feel like I'm too old there anyway.
- My priorities have changed. It might though be a mother thing, not age related.
- I'm not afraid to say what I think. I trust myself and know what I am capable of.
- I know good friends when I see them.
- I have more understanding towards everything and everyone.
- No one is ever wrong, there are just different opinions.
And so much more... So suddenly just before my 36th (aka 40th) birthday I realize what a wonderful, exciting, happy, sad, lovely, strange, intriguing, emotional, mad life I've had.
Thank you all for being part of and continuing to be a part of it. ((((()))))
Now time to hit to bed... work tomorrow zzzzzzzzzzzzzz
I share most of your thoughts and feelings.
I have a few rules that I try to apply to my everyday life: love, give, move, explore, party and be happy!
No matter what age I am (and I am older than you!) I try to live everyday for its fullest and take everything as it comes to me.
And I so totally refuse to be a silent sufferer - you know, you choose yourself how your life's going to be... Choose being happy and happiness, that will keep you young forever.
Life’s Journey is not to arrive at the grave safely in a well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, totally worn out, shouting 'Holy shit! What a ride!'
Love & Hug,
H
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